This past week, I had two first dates. One was with Chris, the actor and waiter I met at Sambuca during another date a few weeks ago...Chris had been my waiter for the evening, and he was awesome! He said he'd go on a date with me, so I took him up on the offer! We had a rooftop yoga session with Shana Stein in Deep Ellum, followed by coffee at Mokah down the street, followed by live music at the House of Blues Foundation Room. Chris just turned 27, and he is a great guy. He's attractive, fun and photogenic. He should be photogenic since he's an actor! Actually, I believe he has a promising career. I think we'll be seeing him on the big screen.
Chris was a perfect gentleman and date, and I'd recommend him to all the girls in the world. I think I might need someone a little closer to my age, but emotional maturity goes a long way and is not necessarily measured by age. Chris and I had a fun evening, so we'll see. And, I am enjoying my hiatus from alcohol. I'm feeling better, sleeping better and seeing things more clearly. After all, anyone can be fun with a couple glasses of wine, right? Chris was fun sans alcohol, and I loved the yoga. We agreed that we both needed it.
The best part of the yoga date was lying on the roof, looking up at the crystal clear blue sky, with planes drifting by in the distance. It felt surreal. I can't remember the last time I relaxed and stared at the sky. It made me realize that I need to relax more! Shana is an awesome teacher. She's one of two yoga instructors that I've truly loved. She makes the practice approachable and fun. Chris agreed that the yoga was excellent.
The following evening I had a dinner date with Alfonso, the Life Coach/Transformational Trainer/Speaker/Author. His publicist reached out to me and planned the dinner date for us. She also said he was 41, single and gorgeous...all true. However, he was interested in coaching me, so we set up a coaching dinner date. Some of Alfonso's advice did resonate with me. He said that we have to let go or "surrender" to the possibilities of love. He has some very conventional ways of looking at gender roles, which do not always work for me. I did appreciate Alfonso's insight and willingness to share his experiences with me. I believe he's been on a soul searching journey, just as I have been.
I believe now, more than ever, that the journey in life is to each his own. What I believe as an individual will be true for me. What you believe as an individual will be true for you. My God may not be the same as your God, and that's okay. I hope to find a partner who has faith and believes in himself - one who is complete and unique - one who embraces life as an individual yet sees the power in partnership. I want someone who doesn't need me - but rather someone who wants me.
I believe I am beautiful just the way I am. One thing Alfonso said definitely rings true for me - in dating, be yourself. Don't try to be something you are not. Thus, I am not trying to fit into a gender role. I am fitting into the role of myself as a person. Yes, I am a woman. Yes, I want to be a mother. Yes, I want to be a wife. But I will continue to be the strong, independent, loving, giving, positive and fun person I've always been. I will not compromise my identity to be married. I will find someone who fits me just as I am. I truly believe I will know my soulmate when I see him.
There is a chance that I spotted him last week. But I am being a little careful. I know I have a deadline, but I don't want to force this. I think it will come together if it is meant to be. I hope I see him again this week. I am going to leave it to chance...